Perseverance is Key

I have been dealing with mental illness, primarily depression, for almost 15 years. The main thing I have learned on my journey is perseverance. Perseverance is key. Not only is it key, it is the only way you will make it through the ups and downs that I have been through. I have attempted suicide 7 times, been committed 4 times and have been through too many failures and mistakes to count. The one thing I can say that I did after each attempt or event is realize that I don’t want to give up, that I want to keep going, that I am going to try and keep going. Obviously I fell into the same way of negative thinking over and over again, but every time I got back on my feet I told myself once again “you can do this”. I even said it out loud at times to myself. My point in saying this is that if I didn’t do that, I would not be here today to write this to you.

I could sit back and tell you life is going to be walk in the park if you don’t give up but that’s not necessarily true and I had to realize that. People, basically everyone, goes through ups and downs and once I realized that, I did not feel alone anymore. My mother tells me constantly as we have discussions on any issues I have to believe everyone’s life is not perfect. Not to say that you should celebrate that you are not the only one with problems but that it is ok to admit and realize that we do have problems. I started to tell myself that if they can do it, I can do it. The one thing not to do is run from and become a victim of your problems. That’s what I had to stop doing.

 

There are places I want to go and things that I want to do that I have yet to do.  There are things that I feel I wish I had done and things I wish I was already doing but nonetheless I still have the tools to carry on so that one day I can do those things. Positivity and optimism are fundamental in turning over a new leaf in life when dealing with depression. All I want to leave you with is you can do this and there is someone out there who cares about you.

 

-Kyle